Its really weird saying I'm almost 30. I don't feel old enough to be 30. I feel like I should still be saying I'm turning 27 or 28. Sure, they are just a few years apart from 30, but they FEEL so much different!
Over the last few years, I've always said I've had no problem turning 30. I thought "age is just a number" and who cares if you're in your twenty's or not. So when my husband turned 30 a couple years ago, I just didn't give him any sympathy when he expressed his woes over being "old." But now that is my turn, I get it. I get what its like to see a decade come to an end. And its... weird. For lack of a better word.
So that brings me to this blog. I'm not much of a journal writer, but some how I like blogging. And I felt like I should document what its like to turn 30. There are things I want to change about my life as I count down these final months of my 20's. So here is a little list I've started. Some of these items I want to accomplish before April 25th rolls around... and some of these are just things I feel like I should be doing now that I'm almost 30.
1. Because OK with my body. Right now I'm not ok with it. After having a child 18 months ago, I didn't do ANY work to drop the baby weight. I gained 60 pounds in those 9 months. And after my kiddo came, I just let my body naturally take the weight off. No working out and no eating right. As a result, I've held onto about 15-20 pounds (depending on how many nachos I've had that week). I've gone on crash diets (low carb) and lost 10 pounds... only to gain them back (and a few more) once the diet was over. I just want to make a commitment to start eating right and working out. I don't want to make a commitment to losing X amount of pounds. Because then it becomes all about the number. I just wanted to be at the weight my body is supposed to be at when I TRY to be healthy, with out depriving myself of a few indulgences every once in a while.
2. Identify with my home. My husband and I have style... but have never been able to follow through with that style when it comes to our house. So recently we've started a downstairs transformation... but its slow moving. Mostly because we can't go out and buy all new furniture right now. But over the course of the next year our goal is to completely transform our downstairs. I've been documenting the first stages of it here: Color My House Rad. Not sure if I'm going to bring that over into this blog... or just keep the house redecorating on my Tumbler. We'll see...
3. Make changes in my marriage. Nothing drastic, but mostly just making more time for us as a couple. We have an unfortunate situation when it comes to weekend childcare. We have none. Which means we rarely can take a night just to ourselves, or a night with our friends that doesn't involved leaving before 8pm because its past our kiddo's bedtime. So, I want to start working on finding a babysitter that we trust so the hubs and I can go on date nights.
So that's basically it. This list may grow but right now these are the 3 things that I am wanting to get in order. Some may seem trivial, like redecorating our house, but if you think about it, the house is where we spend so much of our time! And I just wanted to identify with it. And right now I don't.
And as for where this blog is going. I'm not sure. I don't know how often I'll blog... and I really don't want it turn into a "diet blog." But I'm not going to put any pressure on myself otherwise. So you'll probably just want to add it to your reader... instead of checking in every day or so. ;-)